Desperate
It's back
and I cannot run
from this feeling of despair
about to swallow me
I thought the nightmares
had disappeared. But now,
I am forced to watch,
terrified of what I see
Your love is a poison
that draws me in
to feed from this drug
which has addicted me
As I reach my hand
to your soul, you bite it
off, leaving me to bleed
alone with my insecurities
You laugh while
tearing me apart
forcing me to become
childlike and at your mercy
You've trampled my self-esteem
making me feel so worthless
that I want to crawl inside
myself to hide from the pain
It was a slap in the face
of my reality to trust in
you so freely, leaving
myself completely vulnerable
As you beg for my forgiveness,
you search my dead eyes
and know I have broken
the chains tied around me
Piece by piece, I again
build the wall around my heart
burying it deep inside
so no one can hear it scream
Copyright © 2000, K. Fink
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